Need My Sanity [JACE]

[caleb andrew winston]

Colors are amazing. And I don’t just say that because I’ve recently been on a paintballing spree, or because I’m a sort-of artist, or anything in between. No, they genuinely are amazing. Think about it. There are colors in everything we see, and yet, we take them for granted. There are people who can’t see colors, and how unfortunate they are. However, they don’t know that they’re unfortunate, as no one ever says how amazing colors actually are. And y’know what? I find that sad. I find that really sad.

Let me just tell you right now that color-blindness in animals is a complete and utter myth. Take it from someone who actually knows; an animal can see colors just as vividly as any human can, maybe even more so. So don’t think that your dog doesn't know what the color red is when you describe something to him, because he does. You’re just being a stupid, ignorant twat for underestimating that pup’s potential. And, let’s just face it now, no one likes a twat - stupid, ignorant or both.

I say this because, as I padded down the hallway, I watched the colours of dusk streaking across the darkening sky. Normally, that prompted a moment of anxiety for me. I couldn't help it; being what I was now, I couldn't help but be terrified that I’d gotten the moon cycles wrong, that I was going to shift and accidentally kill someone. But when I knew that it was all okay, dusk was the prettiest time ever. I loved staring out at the dimming light as it ignited the sky.

You’re probably wondering why I was walking away from my dorm as the sky got darker. I should have been going toward it, not to a completely different tower. Well, I was lonely. I didn't really see much of my roommates, for one reason or another. I didn’t know what it was. But anyway, I didn't like being alone. It was boring, pointless and driving me to distraction. I needed people. I needed to get out of my dorm. I still needed whatever tiny shreds if sanity that I owned.

So, I’d found myself leaving my dorm and heading down to the East Tower, where I knew that the Boreai stayed. I remembered Jason’s offer for me to just come down there whenever I liked. And so, I was going to take shameless advantage if his hospitality. I’s already decided that I liked the boy. He seemed really sweet and nice and everything. And he liked Pokémon. That made him a pretty much perfect friend for me, despite the fact that I knew almost nothing else about him. Oh well.

Practically skipping, I ended up outside what I could only assume was Jason’s dorm, with an excited grin and wide, brown eyes. I didn’t know for sure that this was his dorm… and, well, there was only one way to find out, wasn’t there? In retrospect, it might have been strange to a different person. But this was fun, exciting. There was no better way that it could have been done, no other way that I wanted to do it. This was me. It needed my own stamp of authenticity.

So, with that same grin on my face, I knocked on the door, before bounding straight in, whirling around almost madly. I wasn’t mad, though. I was just excited. Jason was a new friend! I liked those. ”Yooo, Jace!” I exclaimed, grinning, still not sure if I was in the right room. It felt like the right one, so hopefully it was. It didn’t matter if it wasn’t, I could just laugh it off. But it’d be cool to know that I was psychic and had picked the right one.

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: IwishIwassorry
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

My phone was sitting on the bedside table. It wasn't moving or flashing or anything which I had to admit surprised me and made me feel a little sad. I guess I thought my parents would have called by now even though I told them I would call them when I got settled in and stuff. I just didn't figure they'd actually listen to me. I was sitting on my bed, alone. I guess I didn't realize there wasn't any other boy borea and therefore no roommates for me to have. I didn't mind it, I supposed, but it kind of made me wanna ask if since I was gay, I couldn't room with Aine anyways. Oh well. I'd live...

I was looking through some of the books I had brought. Some that were my favorite, and some that my parents thought I should bring because they were educational and some might be in lessons or whatever. I brought them so my parents would stop nagging, and now I was separating them so I could put the ones I didn't want underneath my bed. My comic books were going to be sitting on my bedside table at all times basically.

I grabbed onto my necklace and let light shine into it so my scepter would grow. My parents told me I should at least bring it out every day at least once, so I guess today I'd just bring it out and set it on my bed. It was good enough. I went over to the television in the room, to which I had already hooked up my playstation 3 too and flipped it on just as I heard a knock at my door and then it open. When I heard the voice, I smiled. The nickname... well. It was nice. I really hadn't had friends before. "Caleb!"

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Outfit

[/b] ------------ Clicky~!
Notes[/b] ------------ Soadorable;_;[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]

[caleb andrew winston]

Another strange thing about colors is that, when you're spinning, they stretch into long ribbons around you that seem to extend for almost forever. Nearly a rainbow of different hues, depending on how many separate colors are in the room around you. It's beautiful, highlighting some of the beauty that we miss when we're stationary. And that is one of the many, many reasons that I absolutely despised staying still. Staying still hid a lot of beautiful things and, no matter how much anyone tried to go against that, they couldn't. It was just a fact of life.

Of course, absolutely none of what I just said matters. Not unless you apply it to the situation I was currently in. I was whirling, almost dancing into a room that I had never been inside before, not even knowing for certain that it was the right room. But, even if it was the wrong one, I couldn't seem to help it. I was just stuck twirling, almost hypnotized by the colors that surrounded me. Maybe not quite hypnotized, actually, but as good as. It was pretty to look at, and I liked looking at pretty things. So sue me. Didn't everyone prefer t look at pretty things?

When I heard my friend's voice greet me, a grin split my lips. I'd gotten the right room! I'd been amazing! This just proved one of my many seemingly baseless theories - I was definitely psychic. I had to be! I'd spent a lot of time wondering if werewolf... ness... had given me any extra abilities and, although I knew that this was probably completely unrelated, a little bit of me had decided to convince itself that it just made me extra special. Yup. I had to psychic now, I'd just proven it.

After my little moment of internal "yesssss" was over and done with, I flopped over the end of the borea's bed, still spinning, with an exhilarated grin on my face. "Hiiii!" I exclaimed brightly as I fell. I was excited about spending time with my new friend, I really was. I don't know exactly what made me so excited - maybe it was his newness? No. Maybe because of the things we had in common? Like Pokémon? I wasn't sure, exactly. Either way, I was happy, and I thought that I should make that clear. It was good when people were happy; it made other people happy, too. "What're you--"

Unfortunately, I'd overshot a little as I threw myself dramatically over the end of Jace's bed. Meaning that I bounced straight off again, doing a little backward roll right off of the edge. I squeaked a little bit in surprise (don't worry, it was totally manly) and hit the floor. I know it probably should have hurt... but it didn't. Not one bit. Even my pride wasn't hurt. I just found myself giggling, near uncontrollably, as I sat up on the floor and blinked a him innocently, as if to say "You saw nothing." If puppy eyes worked with Kit, then I was pretty sure could use them on Jace, too. One of the admittedly few advantages of being what I was.

"Owww." I whined, still chuckling. It didn't really hurt that much, but a little bit of dramatic license never hurt anybody, did it? Besides, it was kind of obvious from the way I was laughing almost hysterically that I wasn't hurt at all. "I'll try that again, shall I?" I picked myself up off of the floor, and flopped over the end of his bed again, stretching out and making myself comfortable. I was sure he wouldn't mind. And, if he did, then... oops? "What're yooou up to?"

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: asdfghjkl
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

I totally didn't burst out laughing at Caleb when he tried jumping on my bed and ended up failing completely. Or... I totally did. That takes talent to do that. Then again. I tried doing a summersault last night and failed miserably as well, so I can't really say anything against it. "Excellent. Absolutely superb."

[/b] I teased with a slow clap and more giggling. That... made my night. Actually, him walking in did that. I walked over when Caleb had gotten all comfy on my bed and snatched my scepter off of it. I ran my hand down it, adding some light, and before I knew it, my necklace was there again. I put it on over my neck and smiled at him.

"I'm just getting settled in and stuff. Making my room mine and what not. I don't have any roommates, so I'm kind of just putting things wherever I want them."[/b] It was true... I didn't know where normal people would put things. I just decided that wherever I wanted something was where it belonged. I supposed that was a perk of no roommates... even though I was excited for making new friends with them. I had Caleb, it seemed, as a friend. That was good enough for me.

Then it was my turn as I jumped on the bed, and therefore on Caleb himself. Not caring that technically, we had just met. Half on him, and half on my bed, I looked at him with a smile. "So what are youuuuu doing?"[/b] That was the better question as the werewolf had just come in Jace's room. Not that he cared. Hanging out with Caleb was way better than unpacking shit.
"Caleb!"[/b]
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Outfit

[/b] ------------ Clicky~!
Notes[/b] ------------ Soadorable;_;[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]

[caleb andrew winston]

One color I really, really do not like is black. Don't get me wrong, it looks fine in things like hair, and like... uh, socks. Actually, no. Not even socks. Just as a hair color, really. Because, come on. Black was a boring, soulless color that meant all the bad things in the world... like the dark, and like black holes, and yeah. It was bad, it was dark, and it was scary. Not that I was afraid of the dark, of course. Nope. Now that I could actually see in it, I felt better... but it was still a little bit disorienting, okay? I had a right to be afraid of the dark. It was okay. I wasn't embarrassed about it. Or maybe I was. But still. I didn't really like being face down on the carpet so that I couldn't see, so I lazily rolled over, snickering hysterically.

Hearing Jace laugh at my idiocy along with me just made it harder for me to stop giggling. I was having trouble breathing, moving, doing anything. I was just curled up, in a ball, on the (thankfully) soft carpet, laughing like I'd never stop. Gosh, I didn't even have any idea why it was so funny to me. Maybe it was just the fact that it was just such a me thing to do. Well, come on, if you're going to make an entrance, you have to do it right, right? It was a good entrance, as far as some of my other disastrous ones went. It was certainly funny, I'd give it that.

"Thank youuuu!" I laughed, picking myself up off of the ground and lying over the end of the bed. "I try. If I'mmuna fail, I'mmuna do it stylishly." There was no point in being stupid if it wasn't going to make people happy. That was the point. I didn't care if people thought I was retarded because, well, I knew I was. But as long as I gave people a laugh, it did't matter to me at all. I wasn't the type of person to care about how other people thought of me. It just... wasn't in my nature to be like that, like I knew it was in some people's.

I don't know how I never noticed the scepter on the bed in the first place. I should have, really, considering how big and pretty it was. But I didn't, because I was both slow and distracted. And then, the weirdest any yet coolest thing happened. As Jace picked it up, and focused a small amount of light onto it, it turned into something that I recognized. the Sudowoodo necklace. Of course! He's said that he had a scepter! I'd just... forgotten. Whoops. But still! Brown eyes wide, I gave him an excited grin as I pointed at the necklace. "That. Is. Amazing." I said simply. Did I need to say more? I didn't think so. It seemed on-the-nose enough.

I have to admit, I wasn't expecting him to flop on top of me. So, when he did, I squeaked again (it was still totally manly), then laughed as he returned my question. "That sounds niiiiice! Y'know, having your own space." I said, then raised a teasing eyebrow. "What does it look like I'm doing? I'm being laid on. " Sure, it was a little bit of a silly response to make, but that didn't matter. Did it? No. No to me, anyway. "Buuuuut in all seriousness. My dorm was boring and lonely. So I thought I'd come say hi." I lifted my arm, with a smile on my face, and waved my hand madly in front of his nose. "Sooo... Hiiii!"

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: asdfghjkl
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

I didn't think it was that cool. Anymore. When I first got it and learned how to make it shrink and grow... well. Let's just say my parents had to take it away from me because I was playing with it too much. I just learned about my powers and stuff! Give me a break! I think I'm allowed to freak about it after that long of not knowing anything about who I really am. "I know! I overused that when I first found out about my powers. It's just so awesome to do stuff like that."

[/b] I gushed to him with an excited smile on my face. This felt really good. The friend thing. I had grown used to being alone, but maybe I didn't need to be anymore.

Laughing at him when he talked about being laid on, I stuck my tongue out. That seemed like the big kid thing to do, right? Right. Then he shoved his hand in my face and waved at me. We were both like really big kids, I think we're going to get along just perfectly. I opened my mouth, my teeth hiding like I was a 70 year old grandma without her dentures in, and acted like I was going to bite his hand. I wasn't, of course. Or was I? Even I wasn't positive.

"Well, since you're here, we can do something? How about watch a movie? I brought a few of mine from home... or we could play a game? I just hooked up my playstation 3."[/b] I told him, almost acting like none of the silliness had just happened. I was ready to have fun with my new friend.
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Outfit

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Notes[/b] ------------ Soadorable;_;[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]

[caleb andrew winston]

Sometimes, I didn't even know what my brain was doing. It was like one of those moments where, without supervision, it would just go running off on all sorts of different tangents, whether I wanted it to or not, More often than not, I didn't. But it was more fun that way. Not knowing where you would end up if you just let yourself drift. That was pretty much how I went through life - it was just so much more interesting that way. Granted, it'd gotten me into a lot of sticky situations, but it was a lot more fun than knowing what would happen if you did something a certain way.

Gosh, like that. None of that made sense, or was useful in any way at all. Maybe it was because of the fact that Jace gushing about this Sudowoodo necklace that was, admittedly, pretty awesome, was just adorable to me. I don't even know why it was! It was possible that it was just because I found rambling cute, anyway. I wasn't exactly certain, nor did I want to be. As I just spent about 234578 minutes explaining, certainty was just bring to me. I hated it. So I just laughed at him, and shook my head.

"Yusssss!" I agreed, stringing out the word for as long as I could without having to breathe. "Buuut how could you overuse it? I'd probably never stop doing it, if I could!" If I could. I couldn't, no matter how much I wanted to, but if I could. It just showed how easily entertained I could really be. But tat didn't really matter, did it? So I was easily entertained. Sue me. If someone had a problem, then whatever. I was happy, and that was all that mattered to me. No one would get in the way, I'd already made that clear in my mind, and I was determined not to let that go.

Chocolate eyes widening in surprise, I gasped a little when Jace made like he was going to bite me. However, it was almost instantaneously covered by uncontrollable, almost mad laughter, and a light "Hah! You missed!" It was cute, though. Wouldn't have hurt, even if he had got me. I'd had worse, as depressing and mood killing as that was. Besides, teeth weren't even involved. On closer inspection I saw that the Borea had covered his teeth over with his lips, in a sweet little granny face. Good. For obvious reasons, I wasn't really fond of teeth. A little bit of an odd thing to not like, but I had an excuse. Kind of. Not really. But still! Teeth were weird, anyway.

My attention went straight to the Playstation 3 the second that Jace mentioned having hooked it up. And I was pretty sure that I had died and gone to heaven. I had a new friend and a Playstation. If I didn't need to eat or anything, I was pretty sure that I would never have left. I didn't want to leave, anyway. A small , happy smile slowly spread on my face, my wide brown eyes looking over at the Playstation excitedly. It looked fun. As it always did. I hadn't played on my Playstation for... woah, almost twenty four hours. That was... unacceptable.

I nodded up at my friend, my smile stretching into a wide, contented grin as I reached up and ruffled his black hair. "That sounds sosososososo goooood." I told him, bobbing up and down excitedly as my eyes roved the room for any DVDs or Playstation games that he'd maybe put away in plain sight. He said he'd brought some with him... so they had to be around somewhere. "What have you got?" I tilted my head at him curiously. I wanted to know, then we could make an informed decision. I didn't really care, though, in all honesty. I was just glad that I'd made another friend, and that it was going to be fun hanging out with him.

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: destiny i cannot
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

That was a really good question, my dear new friend. How could I overuse it indeed. I didn't think I could, but apparently it was possible if you were my parents. I was going to tell him that too... but I kind of got side tracked by my mind reminding me the second thing I got obsessed with doing when I found out about my powers. I sat up and bounced up and down on the bed in probably a way that made me look like a kid that was going to get chocolate or ice cream for breakfast. "Oh! And I found out I could do this! Do you remember the episode of Spongebob where him and Patrick get a box and they use their imagination?"

[/b] I asked him, skipping the whole do you watch spongebob question because. Hello. It's Spongebob.

"Well it's not as cool, but it's close to what he does and I love it!"[/b] I told him with a huge smile as I moved my hands in the same way spongebob did, said imagination the same way spongebob did, and made a trail of light as I moved my hands. I couldn't make the rainbow... but it was close enough with the light beams, right? I thought so. I just love Spongebob, so I thought it was the best thing in the world.

When his hand messed up my hair though, I gave him my best pout and tried to fix it. I couldn't maintain the pout very long, however, before jumping to lay on my bed and grab the container of all my games and handing it to him. "You can pick any one of those you want to play out. I don't mind any."[/b] I loved all my games equally. I couldn't like one more. That was like a mother liking the eldest child better. Or a teacher favoring the student that had a rough time at home. I just... couldn't. It wasn't fair to them.
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Outfit

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Notes[/b] ------------ Soadorable;_;[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]

[caleb andrew winston]

It was funny, really, how much a person could have in common with someone else. I knew, of course, that there was only so much that two people could share about themselves, seeing as no one was exactly alike. If everyone was exactly alike, then life would be a very boring experience. Well, unless repetitiveness was what someone liked. I was not, as you have probably already gathered, one of those people. I was the type that believed strongly in the philosophy that variety was the spice of life and all that shit. As corny as it sounded, I thought that it was just far more interesting to be different.

But this? This was bordering on spooky. Not only did we have all this stuff in common, like Pokémon and Video Games and... now Spongebob. Spongebob. I didn't know I wasn't the only one who still watched that show. And... Jace was twenty. I cannot even begin to tell you how much better that made me feel about being almost seventeen and still watching a show that even my younger brother had grown out of. And, as if that wasn't amazing and awesome enough, Jace had just made a fucking rainbow. Well, maybe not quite a rainbow, but the trail of light in front of my wide, brown eyes was just as beautiful as a rainbow, so it still counted.

"Imaaaaginaaationnn." I said along with him, laughing as I extended my finger and wrote the word in the air, dragging my finger through the light trail so that it would actually show up in the air in front of us. Sure, my writing was a little rushed, and yeah, maybe my spelling was off. But surely that didn't matter right now. I was pretty sure that Jace wouldn't mind, anyway. So I wasn't exactly book smart. That wasn't... exactly necessary? I did have a brain, honest! I was clever - no, not just clever, I was always right. But it was just... translating my smarts onto paper that didn't go well. It almost always ended up either being phrased in a way that was too simple, or turning into something along the lines of "asdfghjkkjhgfdvbnfasdfsa".

I shook my head eagerly in disagreement with what he said. Nooo. Nonononono! It was just as cool as what Spongebob did! "Whutchu talkin' about?" I queried, poking him playfully, and then stretching out comfortably across the end of his bed. "That's easily as cool as what Spongebob does!" Because, well, Spongebob didn't actually have powers. The rainbow was his imagination working anyway. The light that my new friend had just made was as real as real could be. So, if anything, that made what Jace did more amazing than what Spongebob did. Even though it was Spongebob, who was just inherently amazing anyway.

I was pretty sure I was going to die of happiness when I got to pick the game. Me. I know it was really pathetic, and stupid, and everything in between to feel like that, but I honestly felt like it was Christmas or something. Maybe that was an exaggeration, though. Or was it? I wasn't certain. I wasn't exactly focusing on that at that moment in time; I was too busy rifling trough the games he'd brought with him, before grinning and pulling out Sonic 4. Sure, it was a bit of an old game (it was a wonder it was actually available for PS3), but I loved it so much.

I reached past him to slot the disc into the Playstation, giving him a cheeky smirk. "Bet you I'll winnnn." I snickered childishly, poking my tongue out at him. Gosh, you would have thought I was six, not sixteen. But I was having fun. So who gave a shit? Not me, and hopefully not Jace either. If he had a problem, though, it wasn't as if I'd stop. But he was nice, so it was all okay. I felt comfortable being myself, as always.

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: Sonic 4 bc of this
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

This guy was perfect. He was just... perfect in every single way imaginable. He was wonderful and magnificent, and superb, and all those other good adjectives that I couldn't think of at the moment because I was too busy doing a massive keysmash in my brain right now. Yep. One of those that I accidentally hit the caps lock on and off like four times so some of the letters are big and other letters are small, but I don't care because it just shows how excited I am. It's like when I'm on tumblr and I see something so adorable or funny or cute that I go to whoever I'm taking to and send them the link before keysmashing like crazy. That was what Caleb just made me do.

So he liked spongebob, he liked my powers, he liked video games, he even liked me. Yep. I'm going to end up marrying this kid. End of story. I smiled widely at him, ignoring the spelling errors in the word imagination because... hello. It was still awesome and I didn't care about little spelling errors. I resisted the urge to punce on him again in a great big hug, and instead flailed a little. Not that I meant to, of course, I just did. Oops. I even might have blushed a bit when he told me it was as cool as what spongebob did. I couldn't make the colors appear... that wasn't as cool in my opinion, but it was good enough.

When he picked out sonic 4, I literally laughed. I was kind of horrible at the game, but I would play it, just because he wanted to and I was that nice of a person. "I bet you'll win too! Just because I said I played games, doesn't mean I'm any good at them."

[/b] I told him as I stuck my tongue out at the werewolf.
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Outfit

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Notes[/b] ------------ Sorry I took so long! I had to get in a good mood for Jace and have enough time to type it all out, and I don't get very much of that. ;_;[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]