Need My Sanity [JACE]

[caleb andrew winston]

Sometimes, there were moments where time slowed, where the world slowed down around you, where you could actually take in and enjoy what you had around you. Those moments, although rare, were pleasant and calming. Which, for someone with my disposition, was near impossible. I was hardly ever calm, hardly ever peaceful, because there was always a whirlwind spinning in my mind. But when those moments did come, they were really nice. I would normally have called the slowness just a little bit boring. But, honestly? With all that'd happened in the past year or two, I was just glad that I still had moments like that.

Like now.

It was just so weird how content I was just lying there, Jace lying next to me, just staring at the white ceiling of the dorm. I would normally have gotten so horrifically bored by now. Horrifically bored enough to put a bucket of water over a door or put a fake spider on someone's pillow or something corny like that. But now? Now I was just... happy. Almost as if I wasn't really in my own body, like I was just floating somewhere looking down on this. Except for, y'know, actually being in the room. I don't know. I couldn't quite place what the feeling was, but I liked it. I liked it a lot.

The silence in the room was interrupted by a seemingly very excited borea bobbing up and down on the bed, grinning like tomorrow would never come. It was quite cute, actually, something I couldn't help but smile at. Like a puppy, or a baby, or something. I didn't know. It was just as cute as all those things. He looked like a five year old on Christmas Morning. It was just fucking adorable. I couldn't not laugh lightly, propping myself up on my elbows behind me so that y face wasn't so far from his. My eyes were wide, brown, excited when he said it. Yes. Yes yes yes yes yes.

"Oh my god, yes!" I exclaimed excitedly, flailing a little bit by accident. I was careful not to hit him though. It was very well aimed flailing, if I do say so myself. Years of practise had gone into that. ... That probably wasn't the best thing to admit, though. "That sounds like so much fun! I'm okay with sharing too because, y'know, hugs are the best and stuff!" This idea was amazing. I really wanted to just bombard Jace with a huge hug for thinking of it. ... And this is where you're expecting me to say that I held back. Well, guess what. I didn't. I kind of just tackle-hugged him, laughing all the while. He was a genius! And he deserved cuddles for that.

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: DESTIE HALP MY FEELINGS
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

I was glad when Caleb agreed to the sleepover without even having to think about it very much. That just... it made my entire life okay? I had never had a sleepover, but I was having one now. I was going to have a sleepover and he was going to stay in my bed and we were going to cuddle all night long because we simply could and we wouldn't be judged or watched or bullied and it was going to be amazing. I couldn't stop smiling, even when I was bombarded with a tackle hug. I didn't mind. It was an appropriate time to get attacked with the hug. When he did hug me, I moved slightly so I was almost fully on top of him. Okay, I was on top of him, but I didn't care because we are still under the blanket cuddling and that's part of cuddling, right? Yes. "This is going to be so awesome!

[/b] I exclaimed, smiling at Caleb.

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Outfit

[/b] ------------ Clicky~!
Notes[/b] ------------ Sorry I took so long! I had to get in a good mood for Jace and have enough time to type it all out, and I don't get very much of that. ;_;[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]

[caleb andrew winston]

There was a saying about smiles. I knew it, and I would probably tell you, but I could not remember what it was for the life of me. I had a terrible memory at the best of times, so this wasn't really a rare occurrence, sad to say. I'd remember something amazing, go to tell someone, and then just completely forget what I was going to say. Which really, really sucked. It was so awkward and stuff, y'know? But it wasn't anything that a smile or a laugh couldn't fix. See! Laughter really was the best medicine! Well, it was most of the time. There were some things, admittedly, that laughter and smiles couldn't fix. But, either way, they could make a bleak situation look much brighter, much easier to deal with.

I didn't even know what I was thinking anymore. My mind had gone off on a huge rambling tangent because of one smile. And the smile was Jace's. I didn't know why; I didn't even get that bad when I saw someone I knew well and really loved smile, like Joe or Mum. It made me happy, sure, but not quite as happy as that. Maybe it was just because I didn't see Jace often. Heck, this was really the first time we'd seen each other after we'd met. Maybe it was just the newness of this smile, and the hope that I could see it more. As creepy as that probably sounds. It was sweet, okay? Adorable. That was all.

I ended up lying underneath him, giggling hysterically, my hair over one of my eyes. Like it usually was, but more so because of the sudden movements that we had both just made. Like... I was literally blind in one eye. Well, okay, maybe not quite that bad. But still! It was the principle. Still giggling hard, I attempted to blow my hair out of my face. It didn't work, though. I'd formed my lips into the right shape to blow my hair out of face, but each time I tried, I ended up pathetically spluttering with laughter. I couldn't help it! It'd been a while since I'd done something like this! Not the hair thing, I did that all the time. I mean that I hadn't had quite as much fun in a while. I'd kind of forgotten how being around other people to just "hang out" worked. Well. Not really. But still. Nyeh.

I nodded eagerly at what he said, a grin splitting my lips as I looked up at him, chocolate eyes sparking with excitement. "Hell yes it is!" I agreed, still laughing pretty hard. Well, Jace was lying on top of me. That made me feel strangely hyper, anyway. But I think it was just one of those instances where I found everything funny. Maybe. I didn't know, I could never really tell for certain. But certainty was so... so boring! I didn't want to be certain! I just wanted to let my mind take me where it wanted to. That was much less restrictive, and much more fun.

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: DESTIE HALP MY FEELINGS
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

Jason watched with a smile as Caleb tried to blow his hair out of his eyes. He could have helped, of course, but that seemed like it was going to take away the funniness of the situation. After Jason thought Caleb had suffered enough, Jace reached up and moved the hair from his eyes because he was just that nice, of course. He smiled at Caleb before laying his head down and snuggling his face into his neck. Yes. He was so warm now. It felt so nice. To just be close to someone like this felt nice. Jason liked snuggles. The only reason he knew that was because when he was sick his mom would let him watch whatever movie he wanted to, drink hot chocolate, and cuddle with her on the couch. Those were the days. Now... Caleb was going to be the person he cuddled. "I'm glad I met you. I needed a friend."

[/b] Jason mumbled, probably without realizing he was even talking.

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Outfit

[/b] ------------ Clicky~!
Notes[/b] ------------ Sorry I took so long! I had to get in a good mood for Jace and have enough time to type it all out, and I don't get very much of that. ;_;[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]

[caleb andrew winston]

Hair in one's face wasn't exactly the most pleasant feeling. I'm pretty sure I've thought about this before, even though I can't remember when. But it still applies. Think about it. There are several million (if not, more) hairs on a person's head. Each one is a small strand of keratin, thinner than paper. It was annoying when one was in your face, let alone an entire fringe-worth. And, no matter how hard a person might try to argue with this, they just can't. It's an impossible thing to argue with. Not that I've ever tried. But that's because I haven't really thought about it in so much detail before, not because I could do it. Ugh. I didn't even know what I was thinking anymore.

Maybe that was because Jace had actually pushed my hair away from my eyes, and any thoughts I had in my head kind of dissolved into a keysmashing mush. That was adorable, like something you'd see in a corny film or something. But still! It was so cute! I couldn't be held responsible for the fact that I wasn't thinking straight just then. I slowly stopped giggling so much, and instead, smiled brightly up at the borea. "Thank you." I said to him quietly, my front teeth nibbling my lower lip so that I didn't squeal again. That was all internal. Not meant to be seen. No, my flailing and squealing and just general fanboying were all supposed to stay inside. Which, thankfully, they did.

Without even having to think about it, my arms went around the fifth year when he burrowed his face into my neck. I wanted the hugs! And the warms. Because, come on, there were lots of those to go around, obviously. Because the Borea obviously liked cuddles as much as I did. And so... yeah. I pulled him in a little bit closer to me just to get a little bit more warmth out of this, and buried my own face in his soft, black hair. Even though, again, hair in my face wasn't the best thing ever, it didn't matter because I was warm and happy. I wasn't going to let anything as petty as that kill all our warms.

And then... I heard it. That. That. I didn't even know what to say, to do, to think. What even? I'd just about lost the ability to can. Because, well... that was one of the sweetest things anyone had ever said about me. No one had ever told me that they were glad that they met me before. No one. I smiled down at him for just a minute, my grin as wide as the Cheshire cat's. "Awh! That's really cute!" I snickered, before returning my face to his hair. "I... I'm glad I met you too. You're good for cuddles." That much was true. Because, well, cuddling was the best thing ever. Subconsciously, I kissed the top of Jace's head, before hiding my face in his hair again. This was... definitely a friendship now, at least. It had to be; how could it be anything else?

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: DESTIE HALP MY FEELINGS
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

Everything just kind of felt amazing with Caleb. I felt his arms wrap around me and pull me closer and there was no way I was going to complain about that because it was just about the cutest thing in the world. Even though I was pretty sure I had told myself that several times today about Caleb, this was the real cutest thing ever. Definitely. The warmth, plus the cuddles meant that I was going to end up falling asleep soon. I knew I was. I was a sucker for a warm place to sleep. I was actually almost dozing off when I heard Caleb talk, that's whn I realized what I had said and what he was answering me. Then he kissed my head and I couldn't resist lifting my head slightly to kiss his cheek. Just because I could and he was adorable. After that, I snuggled back into his neck and mumbled once more. "Can we sleep now, because I'm tired."

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Outfit

[/b] ------------ Clicky~!
Notes[/b] ------------ Sorry I took so long! I had to get in a good mood for Jace and have enough time to type it all out, and I don't get very much of that. ;_;[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]

[caleb andrew winston]

Sometimes, certain emotions were strange things to feel. Not saying that in a way that suggests that I am a sociopath, because I most certainly am not, but there were just some emotions that couldn't be placed, no matter how hard a person might try. Because it just couldn't be done. Either because the emotion was far too strong, or far too weak. And by weak, I don't mean stupid. I mean that there isn't enough of it to tell exactly what it is. It's either just overwhelming, or not enough. Most of the time, for a person of my type, it was overwhelming. So maybe I was a little more emotionally attached than I should have been. Sue me.

I say this because, as the borea cuddled into me, I felt an overwhelming rush of a nice, warm emotion. I didn't know what it was, exactly - I couldn't put my finger on it! Maybe it was just the fact that I hadn't experienced this kind of thing for a while, and had forgotten what it was like. Nostalgia, though? Didn't seem likely. I didn't normally feel that way about anything. Unless, y'know, I was thinking about the way I used to be before I was turned, which I didn't often to anymore because it was just depressing. Because, well, it reminded me just how much I'd left behind. And I didn't like that.

I wasn't expecting the kiss on the cheek, though. Although I really should have, because come on. I'd just kissed Jace's head; what else would he have done? I didn't know. But still, maybe that was just because I was caught off guard by how cute that was. Jace was cute. I actually had to admit it. It was like something you'd see in a really sappy film or something like that. It was cute enough to make it that far up the scale, anyway. Except this was better. Because, well, it wasn't overly gushy, and it didn't want to make me hurl. It just made me smile, softly, my hand going to where he'd kissed me. Call me girly, or hopeless, or a weird mix of the two, but I couldn't help but giggle a little bit at his cuteness. It was either that, or completely just dying everywhere. Giggling was preferable.

The sky had darkened a lot since I'd come into the room, the black dotted with thousands of silver stars. The moon wasn't quite full, which made me feel relieved, more than anything. It was good that I hadn't got the days wrong. But it would be full on Thursday. I needed to remember that, just so I wouldn't end up doing anything I'd later regret. But anyway. The darkness of the sky made what Jace was asking for make a little more sense, so a merely nodded. "'Course we can, silly," I said to him, with a content smile. I normally didn't sleep this early, but maybe it would be good. Besides, leaving Jace to seep in his own would have made me feel bad.

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: DESTIE HALP MY FEELINGS
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

He agreed to sleep right now, which I was grateful for. I was just kind of really excited to snuggle into him and sleep all night. We were under the covers, night had fallen, and I didn't last much past sunset. "No light means no Jason."

[/b] I muttered. It was true. I didn't like the night because the light powered my body. The sunlight was probably one of my favorite things in the entire world. I could bask in the sunlight 24/7 and never want to come in. If Caleb was going to be my friend, he was going to have to get used to the sun and sleeping early because I was just kind of lame like that. I let my eyes close before slipping down slightly so I wasn't fully on top of Caleb, but cuddled into his side with out feet tangled together and my head still buried in his neck. I reached my hand out of the blanket and closed my open hand quickly, taking the light out of my lightbulb so my room was dark. My hand returned under the blanket and rested on Caleb's chest. Just because I could.

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Outfit

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Notes[/b] ------------ I CANT HALP. MY FEELINGS ARE ADFGHDJSK TOO.[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]

[caleb andrew winston]

Fuck. This really, really wasn't fair at all. Because, well, it just wasn't. I was younger. I was the one that should have been all adorable and cutesy and stuff. But, no, my title had just been stolen by a twenty year old man. So what if he acted like a child? That didn't matter. ... Okay, yes it did. I couldn't compete with that. Unless I broke out my wolf, which I didn't ever really do because of reasons. I didn't like it; it made me feel... weird. Almost unnatural. So, until that actually happened (if it ever did), Jace was just going to win. Every time. Which was okay, really, because you win some and you lose some. But maybe it was just the principle that I didn't find good. Nyeh, I didn't know or care, really.

It wasn't until the light flickered off that I realized just how sleepy I really was. This happened quite a lot before full moons - I would get tired, so that I would sleep more, so that I could just run around to my heart's content on those nights. But, yes. I was getting really tired, and I hadn't even noticed. I wondered why that was. Normally, I was pretty aware about how I was feeling, if I needed anything, sleep being no exception. I'd just completely ignored it this time, though. Probably because I was having too much fun to pay attention to what was going on in my head. That happened quite often. The thing was... it never got to this point.

My eyes slid shut slowly, as I felt Jason roll off of me and cuddle into my side. My arm went around his shoulders almost automatically, pulling him a little bit closer to me so that I could share the warmth that he had. That, and... I was tired. I needed something to hug. A person was good enough for me.I felt his hand on my chest and, sleepily grinning, I placed my own hand on top of it, keeping it there. I liked it. Made me feel warm and happy for some reason. Could have been because I was overtired, might have been for another reason. But then, reasons took the fun out of everything. Why couldn't I just do things spontaneously, whenever the fuck I liked?

"Nuhnight, Jace," I murmured sleepily, kissing his temple lightly in what I thought was a friendly gesture and burying my face in his hair, before slowly drifting off to sleep. We'd said that it would be fun. When we'd said fun, I'd had something else in mind. But, y'know what? This, this, was so much better. I couldn't have asked for more, no, not even if I'd wanted to.

Outfit: Clicky!
Tagged: Jace! :3
Notes: I CANNOT
Lyrics: A Shot Across The Bow by Mayday Parade

[jason lee clark]

Almost as soon as the words nuhnight came out of his mouth, Jason was one of those people that could fall asleep so easily, he didn't even remember trying to fall asleep in the first place. That was how awesome he was.

He was also awesome because for some strange reason, and again he blames his powers, he wakes up at the crack of dawn every single day. When the sun comes out, so does he. It was just one of those things that he didn't know how to fix it and wasn't actually sure he wanted to. But for right now, he was up. For the most part they hadn't moved around much. Their legs were still tangled together, Jason was still curled into his side with his hand on Caleb's chest, Caleb's hand still on his. They had just turned slightly. He took a deep breath, breathing in the morning air.

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Outfit

[/b] ------------ Clicky~!
Notes[/b] ------------ I CANT HALP. MY FEELINGS ARE ADFGHDJSK TOO.[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]