Long Live Us [JASON]

[caleb andrew winston]

I'd never really thought of myself as lonely. I was alone, solitary, all the other synonyms in between. But I didn't feel lonely. And therefore, I never actually thought I was. In fact, sometimes my own company was better than having people around me. Sometimes, I felt far more at ease by myself than I did around other people. Around other people, I didn't feel as though I could really be me. I didn't feel comfortable enough to let myself go. On my own? That was a different story. I could do whatever I wanted, be whatever I wanted to be. I could be me, and that was all I really wanted.

It wasn't until a few things happened, though, that I'd realised just how lonely I really was. I didn't even know that I could feel lonely. But it was my most recent episode that made me realise. If I hadn't had people around me during that time, if they hadn't been there, then I didn't know what I would have done. I hadn't realised how lonely I was until people were actually there for me. I hadn't realised how much I'd been missing. And now that I had it, it wasn't something that I really wanted to let go. It wasn't something that I really could let go.

A lot had happened recently. Most of it too dramatic for my liking. But I was thankful for all of it. Because if it hadn't have happened, I probably wouldn't have been in this situation. No, not at all. And even though it'd taken quite lot of getting used to, it was all worth it in the end. I was happy now, really happy, something I hadn't been in a long time. And I owed it all to someone in particular. Someone who I had grown to love with pretty much everything, without even realising it. I'd fallen slowly, slowly, and then all at once. And that was why I was in the situation I was in.

I laid on my bed, staring up at my white ceiling, my legs swaying somewhat restlessly in mid air while I waited. This was serious now, and I knew it. Even though I never meant for things to end p this way, it was great that they did. I suppose it was inevitable, really. I couldn't have stopped it, even if I'd wanted to. And y'know what? I think I owed and loved Jason a little too much to want to stop it from happening. I was stuck now, and I knew it. There was no going back now, I'd gone too far.

Oh well. I didn't want to go back anyway. And I didn't think I ever would.

Outfit: Soon.
Tagged: Jace~
Notes: asdfGHJKL
Lyrics: The Reckless and The Brave by All Time Low

[jason lee clark]

I was kind of nervous. I had never really thought about being this serious with someone before. Hell... I never thought about being with someone in the way I was just with Caleb. I thought sex was gross before Bertie mentioned it and then Caleb had already done it... and I think maybe a part of me just kind of thought that I needed to because Caleb had already done it and I wanted to be with him as much as I possibly could and... I ended up being.

Then we talked about Caleb moving in with me... and it did make sense that I move in with him and not him move in with me. He didn't live with anyone and I did. So... I packed a few things and put them in a backpack. I made sure to pack my charazard pillow and my squirtle toothbrush and everything was awesome. I was all ready to stay there and as long as no one got put in Calebs room... we were going to be living with each other. I thought that I liked that because it meant I got to sleep next to him every night and that was awesome. Plus we could play games all night and day and no one would tell us not to.

When I got to his dorm, I didn't bother knocking. Instead I just walked in and gave him a bright smile as I put my backpack down. "Hey, you."

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Outfit

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Notes[/b] ------------ mfiodjniox[/i]
Tagged[/b] ------------ Jalebbbb~[/i]
Song Credit[/b] ------------ Could You Put Your Light on Please - Harry Chapin[/i][/center]

[caleb andrew winston]

Empty space really was horrible. I thought that as I sat up and frowned at all the empty beds in the room, other than mine. Empty space occupied too much of life. Don't get me wrong, sometimes it was a blessing. Sometimes, you just needed a time in your life when thee was nothing happening at all, where you could just completely go with the flow. I was living off of those times where there wasn't anything ridiculous or dramatic happening in my life. In fact, it was like that right now. Everything was going well, for once. It finally looked as though God, if he even existed, had stopped making fun of the bad things in my life, and was starting to give me good things.

A little late, but hey. Better late than never.

If I was honest, I was really wondering how me and Jason rooming together would work out. I guess I was worried. I was worried that I would become too dependent on him, and that it would get too much. I had my moments. And, even though Jason had been there for me through one of those moments, I couldn't help but secretly think that I was pathetic and weak for leaning on him so much. I was Caleb. I'd always been raised to believe that I was strong and that I didn't need anyone to be happy. And, suddenly, I'd disproven that theory by loving someone. It made me wonder if I was wrong.

But the minute the door clicked open, all of that left my head as the reality of what was happening hit me. I was going to be living with someone. Someone who I viewed, not only as a lover, but as a best friend as well. Someone who hopefully viewed me in the same way. I had absolutely nothing to be afraid of, and I knew that. Because, if I knew how the world worked properly (which I was pretty sure I did), then I knew that everything would eventually fall into place, just like it had when I arrived here. Barring a bump in the road or two. Then again, those could only be expected. Life wasn't perfect, and it wouldn't ever be. But right now, it was pretty damn close.

"Heeeey~" I chimed, pushing a hand through my already messy hair and giving Jason a lopsided grin. And then I realised... I'd made no attempt at all to clean up. It must have been a pretty weird sight to walk in on - me scowling at the beds that I wasn't lying on while my possessions littered the carpet. Maybe it was something that shouldn't have been considered inherently "weird", though. At least, not for me. I could have done weirder. I probably had, anyway. This was fairly normal. Yes. It was perfectly normal. "Pardon the mess. I'm lazy."

Outfit: Soon.
Tagged: Jace~
Notes: asdfGHJKL
Lyrics: The Reckless and The Brave by All Time Low